Reopened

Not going to run away again

Hope this promise is not made to be broken

For some reason, after reading some articles, I noticed making my blog private does not solve problems. I was trying to shun away from problems, ain’t facing them, making me weaker.

Vividly remember long long time ago Bro told me if you can survive through the attack of viruses, you grow stronger. Maybe sometimes I shouldn’t think about, “what if I can’t survive the attack?” Be optimistic huh?

Anyway, I hope I can stay strong and won’t have the thoughts of blocking access to my blog again, it was foolish of me to do so, thinking that problems won’t occur when I make it private. Life goes on and things still happen, I guess...

I have a bad habit, I like to browse through articles, thinking that I’ve absorbed all the essence, but hell I’m not. There’s this article with a lot of pictures, posted by a blogger, of course there’s words too, but always, ya I know ALWAYS, I never read the words clearly. Pictures are deceiving, they capture what’s going on AT THAT MOMENT, things ain’t long-lasting. People grow and aged, flowers bloom and wither. The natural cycle of life. I was again, again, again deceived by the pictures, while I was wondering why this fantastic blogger has not been updating the blog, I took some time reading the words below the pictures.

The pictures record the love story (supposedly happy) of a couple, and every time I visit the blog I would just scroll down, not noticing those pictures were taken ages ago, and the couple had broken up long time ago. I admit it, sadness attacked me... I am not having the best mood right now, I hate things to be broken, same goes to relationship. Especially when two persons love each other very much, and still in the end, they choose to break up. And while I was busy feeling sad over the past relationship, I remembered something that I learnt some time ago when I watched a Japanese drama, Liar Game.

Sorry to be relating this seemingly meaningless theory here. Have you ever felt sad for people whom you don’t know who are suffering from illness, hunger, etc? However, for people whom you know who are in the same plight, you think serves them right? Well, you may not be a compassionate being, I hope I can give a good and all rounded explanation on this, but it has something to do with us being fake... Try watching the first or second episode of the second season of Liar Game.

And so, I’m a hypocrite because to tell the truth, I do fit in the above characteristics. Be truthful to yourself, the last person you can lie to in this world is yourself.

Carpe diem, do check the meaning yourself. It kind of have the meaning of don’t wait, do it now. When you are holding a torch to someone, confess to the person. When you are holding your phone, asking yourself should I make the call? Call! Don’t wait until it’s too late. Tell your siblings you love them very much although you always quarrel with them. Tell your parents you love them more than you love your siblings although you rarely call them and always argue with them. Don’t wait...

Last thing to talk about, “Song of the Year” ~ Nian Du Zhi Ge
I wonder has everyone heard of this song? It is really meaningful to me. For some reason, I know I am lacking of fate to be together with someone, but I do hope I was once the “Song of the Year” for that person, at least long long time ago, I had a place in that person’s heart.

And please don’t start pitying me after you see what I’ve written, I’m doing very fine actually, just a little stressed out with studies, a lot of new things being taught this semester, still trying to adapt :). Give me some time, I hope I can adapt well.